Do you want the truth, or something beautiful? (8)

Feel like I am currently wasting my life away! I don’t make much money, all my friends have left for uni to do great things, my family aren’t in the same house as me anymore and I just feel empty. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life, all I know is that I am currently wasting it away while everyone moves on and lives their lives without me. Cool.. Not cool, actually. Not cool at all.

On a brighter note, went up to Southampton yesterday and stayed with Michelle. We went out for her 30th birthday. She looked frickin’ fantastic as well. Love that woman.

Eugh, anyway, must dash. Gotta waste some more of my life away. Ciao.

Okay, so I now haven’t written to my tumlr account in about two months. I’m neglecting this more and more as time goes by it would appear! Right then, let’s do a catchup:

I am no longer working in Primark as a supervisor due to the fact I couldn’t take coming home crying anymore. Instead, for about the last month I have been back at Bulbury again as a barmaid. I am also living with Nicci - which, I might add, I am loving! So, yeah, that pretty much sums up work and living arrangements on my part atm. Although, Nicci is going on holiday on Tuesday and I am going to be devastated from missing her so much, and also because that means that I am left with the prick assistant manager for a week at work. EUGH! 

On a brighter note, still in contact with Michelle from Primarni, which is good! Went up to see her at the beginning of the month to see her in her new job, and am going up in two weeks time for her birthday! Excited!

I have two new baby turtles as pets, which are adorable and I love them very much. They are called Squirt and Crush (as in from Finding Nemo!) and they are just.. cool.

Hmm, what else? … Love life is dead as a dodo pretty much. Nothing new to declare there! The one from work who I was half seeing before turned out to be a complete knob and the same as all men. So that’s that. He left work shortly after, so my problems were then over with that!

Hmmmmmm, so all of my friends have left and gone to uni.. and I’m left at home with no friends and wondering what I’m doing with my life and why I’m wasting my life away whilst all of my friends are making something of themselves. It’s killing me hearing and seeing and reading all about their uni antics because it makes me miss them more and also makes me feel shit about myself.. which in turn makes me miss them more because usually they are there to help the situation.

Mama is poorly still, and the hospital have messed her about beyond belief which is making me angry and upset at the thought of them not making her any better and leaving the situation to get worse! Still not sure what it is, and she lost a baby last month! :( Sad times all around really! But I have everything crossed for her, and I love her very much. Oh, and Guy is a prick for making her and Karl move out of the house for him and his new home-wrecking slut who he is supposedly marrying next year.. Well, if he does, then that shall be a wedding that we can ruin, like they did with my mum and Karl’s!

Trying to think what else there really is to write about tbh.. I don’t lead a life that is all that exciting tbh! I went out last Friday with Nicci and a few of her friends and got so outrageously drunk that I was worse than I have ever been before and can remember practically nothing about the night.. other than before we left pretty much. Apparently I even saw Caroline, but I have no recollection of this.. I was also sick, apparently, but have no memory of this either! Eugh, I hate not remembering what I did.

What else? What else? What else? I got a call about being employed as assistant manager at Brantano, but haven’t heard anything again since.. I have applied to be assistant manager at tReds, but it’s only been a few days and I haven’t heard anything back yet.. fingers crossed!

My brother turned sixteen on Weds, cannot believe my baby bro is getting all grown up! Spent an absolute fortune on him for his birthday too! Spoilt little bugger! Quite enjoying working with him at the golf club though, which I didn’t necessarily think I would, but I am very much enjoying it! 

So all in all life is going okay atm, but I am very much missing my friends and at a lost end as to what I am going to do with the rest of my life..

So, Until next time.. I think I’ll leave it at that for now.

Peace x

Feel like I haven’t written to my tumblr account in forever! What to write about..hmm.. think I might bullet point. :)

- Work is shit atm, but Michelle is the biggest babe ever helping me through it! So much love for that woman!

- Kinda seeing someone atm, which is making me happy. Nothing too serious, but it’s keeping a smile on my face. :)

- Friends mean the world more than ever!

- Going to start flat hunting this summer with Zoe, with the hope of moving into our new home in September! How exciting!

- Considering doing my Africa teaching scheme again, if I can afford it. Would still love to do it!

- I’m going to spain 2 weeks tomorrow, such a must needed break!

- Hoping to book a holiday with Michaela and Lauren, if my funds can afford it.

- Also hoping to go on holiday with Zoe and Lauren (different Lauren) if my funds can afford it!

- Helping with Glenmoor activities week with the singing section a week tomorrow.

That’s all I can be bothered to write about right now, so I think I’ll wrap it up for now. Tata for now tumblr. xx